Chapter Five: Puerto Rico

Hey guys!!!
So you guys read Chapter 4, and I've gotten back awesome reviews and many saying they cried, I promise that were not my intentions! But it's the truth and it does hurt...So today's Chapter is about arriving to Puerto Rico and my journey there...

We arrived to Puerto Rico on August 17, 2005, We were going to live with my grandpa til we found a place to call our own. Living with grandpa was boring lol, his wife cooked food bland because he was diabetic. I begged mom to take over because I was going to starve to death she laughed and took over some days cooking. At first living in Puerto Rico wasn't bad felt like a vacation, but I was home sick, I was missing my friends and my freedom. I was in a place I had no clue where to go, better yet I knew no one but my grandpa and ofcourse mom and my 2 bratty siblings. I was in heaven the first time I went to a mall in my life. Mom was excited to see me adjusting pretty well, thing was if I could shop I didn't care about anything. Weeks passed and we found a house, nothing fancy it was a two family house and we were in the bottom. It was a 4 bedroom, 2 bath house meaning we all would have our own room. Finally!!! I would have privacy. Next was furniture shopping, I could get a full size bed a big upgrade from a damn twin. I chose a nice wood full size bedroom set. School had started in Puerto Rico meaning I would be stuck with Spanish kids all damn day, don't get me wrong I spoke and could write and read spanish but I dint ever have to use those skills til now and I was not happy! Things were different in Puerto Rico we had to wear tailored school uniform, meaning mom had to buy the material and get my uniform made. We had to wear plaid skirt and white shirt or dress and white shirt and SHOES!! What the fuck I haven't wore school shoes since elementary, it wasn't mandatory and mom still bought them yet they stood in the box. She caved in and bought me like 4 pair of sneakers and I was happy again. I noticed that the girls in high school was we ring lil girl book bags like hello kitty, minnie mouse, I fucking refused to wear some kiddie shit. And I bought a Jansport bookbag now that was more like it. The first day of school was depressing I knew no one and the language in class was foreign. Speaking occasionally spanish and having to listen to classes all day in Spanish was terrible. But I did make some friends some English speaking ones omgggggg yessssssss!!! Next to the school was another school like for special needs and bad behaved kids and ding ding ding I knew I would make some good friends there. I became immediate friends with Carlos, he spoke English, he wasn't special needs but was labeled as bad. But please they don't no bad they hadn't met me yet. I hung out all the time in the Cancha which was like the basketball court up the block. I began cutting school there, shit school in Puerto Rico was just not for me I didn't understand shit, or maybe I didn't put my 100%, but anyway it was I refused to attend. Mom grew concerned as any parent would and made me a appointment with the psychologist and psychiatrist, and I was dignosed with depression and anxiety and was prescribed medication. I didn't refuse the meds because I did want to feel like a normal teen which I didn't after all I went through. The problem of taking the medication was that it would have me drugged up in the morning and I wouldn't make it to school so I just stopped taking them and would try to manage myself. I was struggling badly with depression I wanted to release the pain some how and I found my eyebrow shaper and started cutting my arms. I wasn't trying to kill myself but wanted to release anger some how. Ofcourse mom saw them and chased me with a damn broom and when that didn't work their was flying frying pans. She yelled out you want to act crazy I'll give you crazy. And that's when I knew my mom was not that sweet woman I thought she was, she was looney tunes. My mom knew I smoked cigarettes, and so did she and she got tired of telling me no and was like fuck it and I smoked cigs with her like nothing. One day mom had a appointment at a eye laser place, she wanted to get rid of glasses. While waiting there I met a girl name Addie. Her mom was nice and we exchanged numbers, she was in belly dancing and a vegetarian. Mom thought this would be great for me to have a friend that had  mom so involved that way I can be supervised double the time lol. I began hanging out all the time with her, she lived the next town over so it wasn't that bad and her mom would pick me up. We had sleepovers at her place and it was so fun. One day they asked if I wanted to go with them to a appointment she had in San Juan and I went. I loved the scenery of my island it was breath taking. After the appointment we ate at a restaurant and did some shopping and headed back. My friend wanted to stop at her friends house to introduce me to him because she said he was hot and single and I was like nope I pass I ain't dating no one that can't speak english, but ofcourse they didn't listen. When we arrived I noticed a sexy guy washing a car, ripped to the tee and I was hoping it was him and god was hearing me because the Addie jumped out and hugged him spoke to him and he came over. He had his hair cut and eyebrows done better than mine and I thought to myself oh god he's gay! But nope that's just the style over there. We spoke and we managed to make eachother laugh and blush, we exchanged numbers and decided to become friends. We left and when they dropped me off I told mom everything and she told me Jericka you been through alot of trauma, no boys for a while. I went on to telling her I saw him as a friend not as boyfriend material, which was true. I couldn't get over the language barrier it felt weird talking in Spanish all the time. We ended up speaking on the phone all day everyday and when Addie would come over he would come along to pick me up. When we all would go out he would buy my food and was such a gentleman. We was actually falling for eachother without knowing it. He was amazing and not to mention good looking, beautiful hair, nice juicy lips and a body to die for. I remember the night he asked me out to be his girlfriend, I was hesitant but said ok because for once in my life I felt like a normal teenager. One day he told me he was going to pick me up from school and go to my house to meet my mom. I told mom and she was happy and said she would pick us both up from the Cancha and she would cook. The next day I actually stood in class all day and at the end of the day, my friend and I went to the Cancha to wait for him, she was just keeping me company but most likely being nosy as well. The time came and he wasn't there. I was very disappointed I called him and he said he had just arrived and was walking towards the Cancha and hung up. When I tell you guys I was nervous, I had butterflies I reapplied lip gloss, double checked my hair, made sure I looked perfect. Then I see him with a pink shirt and I tell myself oh great another pink loving guy ugh! We hugged and for the first time kissed and time stood still, a feeling I never felt before. When it was over he were both super red but ignored it. We held hands and waited for mom to arrive and we went home. There we ate and had lots of laughs mom had to take him home but it was pouring and her asthma started to act up and she had to stay home and use the nebulizer. So he called his parents told them what was going on and they told him to ask and see if he could stay over. He asked mom and mom said yes way to fast without hesitation and til this day I think she set us up. She really liked him. By the way his name was Edison. Now it's time to go to sleep and I go ask mom where is he sleeping at, I thought she would have Kiara sleep with her so he can stay there but her answer made my mouth drop. She said you ain't a little girl, he can sleep with you and do me a favor put something a little more sexy on. When I tell you guys I nearly died omg I began to panic and anxiety started getting the best of me. I go and tell him he sleeping with me and I see him swallow hard but he was okay with it. Lucky me I had shaved so I jumped in the shower while mommy entertained him and I was like what the hell do I wear I never had to get ready for sex lol it just happened. So I settled for my Hello kitty pajama set it didn't exactly scream sexy but it will have to do. So we lay down say goodnight and attempt to go to sleep. I felt strange like why isn't he trying to touch me or have sex with me. So I was like let me just kiss him so he can see it's okay. So I just jumped in and kissed him and he responded back. His hands was in my hair holding me in place and my hands was on his face holding him still because I dint want it to end. It was different then every other time I had sex it was slow and passionate, we had made love and it was perfect. I woke up to him attempting to wake me up with kisses everywhere and I giggled and gave into a morning quickie. Needless to say he spent 2 extra nights. Time has passed, and our families know eachother, Addie no longer speaks to me because she says she always liked him and was testing him to see if he liked her, but her planned failed miserably he fell in love with me and I with him. Like any relationship we had ups and downs, he was a pretty boy and a big flirt which I hated with a passion and that would cause our arguments. I started to physically abuse him, hit him belittle him and he would take it. I treated him horribly at times when he hurt my feelings but not once did he hit back til one day he had enough and slapped the soul out of my body. One I was in shock two I was super pissed and it was on we started to rumble. Police got involved but they told him to go home his parents came and picked him up. That didn't stop us from being together, we were addicted to eachother. Time passes and we together 2 years and he had moved in with me at mommy's house. Everything was great between us, fun loving relationship, he would buy me everything I wanted but cheating had started by him even though he til this day won't admit I had proof. There was messages and pictures and through all that we stuck it out. I wa missing my best friend Madeline and wanted to go visit New York so I bought my ticket and he was fine with it because mom was going too but she was going to stay with my dad and I was going to stay with Madeline, and no supervision. Before I left we got engaged, I accepted but was skeptical at the same time. My summer plans was drunk nights and memories to be made with my bestie. I was going for 6 weeks and I was going to have fun. And ofcourse my life is drama and drama would follow me lol...But as drama follows I would have fun doing me...

My thoughts:
As you all read Jericka was in a dark place and Edison made it better. He brought the teenage side of me but the cheating had me fed up. I stood with him through the cheating because the good outweighed the bad in my eyes and ofcourse I was still young and dumb and I stood young and dumb til I was 20 lol nothing much has happened here in this chapter but you guys read that I fell in love for real and was in a long term relationship and even got engaged. Shouldn't I be happy, ofcourse I was but I felt I was living a lie and I was going to stop being a good girl and get even in New York. So stay tuned for Chapter 6: New York Rebel. Love ya X0x0Xox0X 😘