Charm Vox box review

Hey guys,

I want to share with you all my charm voxbox goodies that I received, but before I begin I want to explain & inform you all on how you can receive one. You have to have connections on social media, once you sign up you will answer snaps questions and based in your answers when there is a Vox box that matches with you then u will be sent a box of goodies. Once you receive your box you have about a month to review your products and receive badges.

Anyway in my Vox box I received a wet and wild 1 step wonder gel Polish in a periwinkle color, 2 Vera Wang sample perfumes, a Mott applesauce pouch, Eva nyc shampoo and conditioner, coconut & dark chocolate peep marshmallow chick's, mccormick taco seasoning packet. All I have to say about this voxbox is that I'm in love with it all!!!

Be sure to check out Influenster, it's free to join and it feels great to receive your boxes it's like a big surprise!

Chapter 13: Mr.Right (Part 3)

Hey my loves!!! I am finally back after a long while away, I had some personal things going on and still do but I need to get back to my blogs for you guys. I have had alot of requests for a come back, so here I am. Oh and one last FYI my YouTube channel is back on and I'm trying to bring all you
guys daily videos, if not 3 videos a week. I'm trying to still figure out what works best for me and my schedule. But be sure to check out my channel hit like and subscribe, don't forget to press the notification bell so you can be informed when new content is out. Next blog will be put up Saturday for here, so stay tuned.

So we last left off on us becoming a family of 6 with the birth of our son Xavier. Time was passing by our baby was becoming a big boy and I couldn't have been prouder. Fast forwarding to February 2015 my mother asked if we were willing to take my brother Joshua for a year while she recovered because she was sick. My husband and I agreed that was fine, and now we became a family of 7. Once my brother arrived from Puerto Rico we knew the challenges we would soon face, as in putting him into a special needs school, etc. But as a family we did it. On April 9,2015 we received the devastating news of my mother's passing and that day I lost a piece of my heart that I will never get back. As a person who suffers from depression and anxiety, I immediately became depressed. I remember that day vividly, I received that tragic phone call and became lost, lost because now that my mom was gone I felt like a little girl lost and scared. I had just found out I lost my best friend. I remember my husband running out after me and picking me up from the street floor and embracing me, telling me to be strong and he was there for me. I think the hardest thing I had to do was break it down to my siblings, my brother here and my sister in Puerto Rico. When I finally got the courage to go upstairs and face my brother and tell him, I realized I wasn't courageous at all because I broke down and he kept asking what was wrong. I sat on the bed and told him that mom had passed away and immediately my husband grabbed him to calm him down. My husband has been my back bone during times I didn't have one and I am forever grateful. He stood behind when I had to go to Puerto Rico to handle business and stood with all the kids, and whenever I felt alone I knew he was only a phone call away. Now back in New York City, I brought a new addition to the family my little sister. My husband was not thrilled because he knew she was a handful but was supportive because I was now there sole caretaker. Once again grateful to god for sending him in my life. As time passed my sister got out of control, trying to commit suicide, mood swings, grieving, boy crazy. I was just not up for this, I really did try. My husband stood by my side when I would have to restrain her from hurting herself, to catching her having sex in my kitchen, and what made me draw the line was when she pushed me up the stairs when I was pregnant. I had to unfortunately give her up to the state but I remain as her guardian, I just couldn't handle taking care of her and everyone else without losing my mind or going to jail, because God knows I was on the verge of putting hands on her. Through all this my husband was amazing. Like you just read I had become pregnant and the pregnancy was proving to be a bad one, I was high risk, and I was also depressed I was still mourning the loss of my mother, which I'm pretty sure didn't help at the time. We learned that I was pregnant with a baby girl, and was so happy because I knew my baby would have the best guardian angel ever, her grandma. Now it's October of 2015, 6 months after losing my mother, gaining 2 new children, expecting a baby, we were now being evicted from our apartment. We was being evicted since it was my mother in laws apartment and we were behind on rent due to the crisis we were dealing with, we had no choice but to go to a shelter. OMGGGGGG life was really kicking my ass and my family ass but we were strong and knew we could go through anything because we had eachother. Man it was rough I was high risk, had all the kids but we went to the shelter had to sleep on the waiting room  benches til a apartment was available for us. We finally was placed in a shelter in Brooklyn, which was nice but the distance was ridiculous. We would have to commute almost 3 hours on trains just to take the kids to school, wait around til they got out to then go home. And once again my husband was our rock, not once did he complain but he raised our spirits all the time. Towards the ending of my pregnancy I was suffering I had IUGR which was a growth restriction my baby had so I was hospitalized for a week, then my son was hospitalized due to a mental health crisis. My husband was the damn man he was strong and made sure we was all okay. On April 12,2016 three days after my mom made her 1st year in heaven our baby girl was born, what was suppose to be my routine weekly sonogram turned into a scare when I was told my baby wasn't moving much so I was rushed down to labor and delivery for a C-section. I was there for hours due to multiple emergency labors. At almost midnight I was taken in to have my C-section, what was suppose to be a 30 minute surgery turned into a 3 hour surgery, I had loss alot of blood but luckily I didn't need a blood transfusion!!  But at last Victoria Ava Rose Noyola was born weighing 5Lbs 8oz 18 inches long. I stood in the hospital 3 days and was released, then stood with my mother in law at her house for week to recover to then go back to Brooklyn. I was so tired of the back and forth I didn't waste no time in doing what I had to do a week after Vicky was born and 2 months later, we received our housing assistance voucher and found an apartment. A 3 bedroom, 2 bath house. Omg after all we went through I was so happy to finally getting everything together, and being at peace for once after every tragedy of 2015!!!

So as you guys can see our journey was long, we have had good times, bad times, happy times, sad times, but our love was so strong and genuine we made it through every test life threw at us. I couldn't begin telling you all how happy and blessed I am to have found my soul mate. This man is heaven sent I swear, he helps keep my depression in check when needed. What else can I say he is my best friend  & husband. Everything a woman can want in a man I have and I'll thank god a million times for loving me so much that he placed his best man for me.

Well this is it guys I love you all, thanks for reading, make sure to follow and comment. I would love to hear feedback from my readers and I would also love suggestions for future blog stories. And if you have any questions or topics you would like me to share for sex talk Sunday's be sure to leave them below. Xoxoxo

Chapter 12: My Mr.Right ( Part 2 )

Hey my loves...I know I been slacking with posting consistently but it's hard when your a parent of 5, so please bare with me, thank you all in advanced! So here's Chapter 12 enjoy...

I arrived back in Puerto Rico towards the ending of August, I was really happy to see my babies again I really missed them alot. I was struggling badly I was missing my hunny so much, but things didn't change we would talk hours on the phone everyday and we would send pictures back and forth to eachother on our daily activities so we could feel close to one another. About to weeks passed and I did not get my period when I was suppose to and decided to take a pregnancy test and ofcourse the results were positive, we weren't being careful at all, which was bad on my end. I did the next best thing send Fernando the picture of the pregnancy test and almost immediately he called me. I didn't want to have another baby especially not knowing if this relationship was going anywhere. When he called we spoke and we agreed on a abortion of sorts. My neighbor that lived under me had a daughter that worked at a pharmacy and could get me the abortion pills for cheap that way I wouldn't have to go to San Juan that was 3 hours away driving and pay full price, I paid $100 for the pills and had to insert them in my kitty and in less than 24 hours I was baby free. I always been against abortions and promised this to be the first and last time I felt horrible but knew it was for the best. Things between Fernando and I was awesome but my relationship with my mother was getting bad, mom knew that I had fallen in love with Fernando and he lived in New York she was afraid that I would leave with the kids and she wanted me to stay in Puerto Rico which I felt was unfair. My mom and I was having more and more problems I was still struggling with the post partum depression and she would stay with Kylie alot of the time and she started threatening to go to court and take my daughter away from me because I couldn't care for her but I believe it was more because she was upset that I was engaged and leaving her again. I had a rough month going to court and stuff and one day my hunny calls me and says pack up I'm sending your ticket to come live with me and we both knew that's the best thing to do after all the legal problems I was going through with my mom. My mom and I came to a agreement that I will take Kylie with me first and come back after settling down for my son Jeremiah. Mom wasn't happy but knew she didn't have a say in this. I tried selling as much stuff as I could from my apartment and left mom with my keys so she could finish emptying the apartment and I packed my luggage and took off with Kylie to New York on October 6, 2012. When I arrived with Kylie and went to baggage claim, I was looking around frantically because I missed my baby so much and then I saw him. He gave me the same smile he gave me when I first saw him. He walked towards us gave me a kiss and started playing with Kylie, but Kylie seemed a little scared lol. When we arrived to his house Kylie met Abby Fernando's daughter and they instantly became close sister's. Things was great and couldn't get better. We started planning on a date to get married and Fernando knew I always wanted to get married in the winter months so he chose to marry me on December 24, 2012. It was kind of stupid that we were getting married 6 months after dating but it felt so right, and on that day we got married and had my cousin Jean there and a friends of ours named stephanie and Ilber. The girls was dressed in beautiful red dresses and I wore a nice cream colored dress and Fernando wore a nice suit nothing fancy since we were getting married through City Hall. We left City Hall as husband and wife, and the best day ever. We had a great Christmas and New Year, and my husbands birthday was coming fast on January 12, 2013 he was going to turn the big 30, and he wanted to celebrate it so we did. We bought 2 cakes, decorations at party city, and ofcourse snacks and liquor. The party was great and my husband was shit faced wasted by 12 am lol and so was many of us. We cut the party off at around 3 am and we was trying to sober Fernando up because he was wasted with tequila shots. We decided to record him talking rubbish and I tried to sober him up by telling him I was pregnant lol but that didn't work well. The next day was cleaning day and recovery day. About a week later I was super sick vomiting and bad abdominal pain so my friend took me to St.Lukes hospital in 116st. Once there I had to take a routine pregnancy test then placed in a room, a while later the doctor comes in and says congratulations you are pregnant and was going to get a sonogram. So before I continue before this pregnancy I had about 2 miscarriages after arriving in New York City because I was always so stressed so when the doctor told me I was pregnant I was negative about it. I felt that I would lose this baby too and my blessing came to a end, I had 2 children and now a stepdaughter so I was blessed either way. When they did the sonogram they confirmed my fear they said I had a ectopic pregnancy and would eventually miscarry. I was upset and hurt but couldn't do much about it, the told us we conceived on our wedding night which didn't make me feel any better. I wanted to have a baby with my husband but I could only pray for a miracle. I made a follow up appointment with my gynecologist and went in the office and did a check up she told me that I did not have a ectopic pregnancy and would send me across the street to get a sonogram, I ran across the street and got the best news I was pregnant and the baby was just fine. I can't tell you guys how fast I went home I told my husband and he was happy and told me "I told you so" lol. Our due date was for September 16, 2013. We went in to find out the sex of our baby and we were both rooting for a baby boy. And can you believe we was expecting a BOY! The day I had my son it was crazy. My husband had taken the kids and I out for dinner (Jeremiah was now in NY ) we ate dinner but had to rush home after Jeremiah peed on himself after dinner, I wasn't complaining I was 8 months pregnant, swollen and exhausted and was having Braxton Hicks Contractions. All I wanted was a hot shower and to lay down. When we got home I bathed the kids and sent them to bed and it was now my turn to shower. These Braxton Hicks Contractions was hurting me like cramps and I hate cramps so I took a hot shower and felt better afterwards. All of a sudden my mother in law bursts through my room door asking me why I was spitting the mucus in the tub and I shook my head like I didn't spit at all what is this woman talking about. I told her to show me but she said she had already cleaned it, I was puzzled but whatever I went on with my business. I started getting strong pains and that's when everything clicked I had lost my mucus plug and I was in labor. I called my labor & delivery and explained to them what was going on and they told me o needed to come in. I was now nervous and upset. Upset because I had nothing packed for the hospital so I told my husband and he was all to happy to help me pack. We packed the baby's bag and my bag and went to tell my mother in law that we was heading to the hospital. She thought I was overreacting to everything and said I was wasting my time to go. Even if I was wasting my time I wanted to be sure. The pain wasn't to bad so we decided to take the train to the hospital and I swear that was the worst. In the train the pains was getting more intense, this was the first time in my life that I  was experiencing labor pains and it wasn't fun. The walk to the hospital felt like an eternity. When we finally arrived to labor & delivery we was given forms to fill out, during this time another couple arrived but she was on the verge of giving birth right there and then and scared me half to death. It was now my turn to go on the monitors, I was given a Tylenol and laid down to be monitored. I was feeling my son move way to much, he was having a party all on his own. When the nurses came to check on the monitors they told me I was having steady contractions and I will be having my son as soon as a operating room became free. I slept the night and my husband slept on the chair next to me, we was awaken by the nurse that was ready to prep me for surgery. This would be the first time that I would have someone with me during my C-section, I was scared and didn't want to leave my husband's side but had to for prepping. When they were done they called my husband right in and he stood by me while they started operating, a short time later I heard my son cry...and that was one of the best times I could've shared with my husband. They didn't bring me my son and I started to panic, I wanted to know why I haven't seen my son yet, my husband went to see what was going on since I was helpless while they were finishing my surgery. My husband came back and told me they had to rush him to the Nicu because he was having trouble breathing. I felt my heart drop to the floor, when they brought me out the the recovery section and they gave me his footprints I started to cry I wanted to see my son so bad. I sent my husband constantly to check on the baby, they finally moved me up to my room and I immediately got up and told the nurse to take me to the Nicu and she told me I couldn't go til tomorrow and they were in for something else because I was not having that. So I told them if they wouldn't take me I would get up and go myself. The couldn't take that risk with me because I just had surgery and still had anesthesia in me. The nurse ran and got me a wheelchair and took me to my baby. As soon as I saw my son tears fell down, I never had seen any of my kids like this before, my son had tube down his throat, uv lights he looked so bad. He was gorgeous he was so white with little peach fuzz hair. I was determined to make my baby feel better, one nurse told me to pump and give him whatever I could pump out and it will make him stronger. I knew from prior experience that I had very little milk supply but I would try to get out as much as I could. I pumped every chance I got at first I would pump 1 oz and that would take me forever but that did not discourage me j kept at it til that 1 oz turned to 5 oz. I had to leave and he had to stay behind and that had to be the hardest thing I had to do. The day I left the hospital we had to go in a immediate baby shopping spree because he came a couple weeks early and we hadn't bought anything but clothes. I was in pain but I took my pain meds headed to Apple bee with my husband had lunch and went on shopping. We had to get a bassinet, stroller,car seat, blankets, diapers, wipes, bottles etc so much to do. I would cry everyday that my son stood in the hospital and I would visit everyday. About a week later they said he was healthy to leave the hospital and that was like music to my ears. A prince was born on August 31,2013 at 10:23 am weighing 7lbs 8 oz. So from a family of 5 we became a family of 6.

I hope you all enjoyed Part 2 of my Mr.Right chapter. We are soon nearing the end so the next post will be Friday night and then Sunday. Remember to follow my blog so you will always be informed of my newest posts, leave a comment or question down below and I'll answer as soon as I can. Love you all X0x0Xox0X.

Fantasy & Desires: My thoughts on anal sex..

Hey my loves...It's Monday and I'm doing a sex talk Sunday just because I do not know what happened. I scheduled this blog post to be posted yesterday and that did not happen which is weird but any who...This blog is about my thoughts on anal sex, so let's get this going!!

Today we will be discussing my views on anal sex, would I recommend having anal sex and some safety first tips. I came up with this topic based on conversations I've had with some female friends and questions they have asked me.

My views on Anal sex:

If you all would've asked me on my views about anal sex a couple years back, I would've said hell fucking no...don't do it etc. I was one who always said it's an exit not a entrance, pretty much against it. Now my way of thinking has changed because I have actually tried it with my husband and really have enjoyed the experience. Some things you need to have in mind is that it will be painful at first but then pleasure will follow. I think that the size of the penis is important when thinking about having anal sex, because if your man is long but not thick it won't be too painful, but if your man is thick long/short that's when it will be painful. Your anus is a muscle so it can stretch to accommodate a penis that thick but the process will be painful as the man inserts his dick inside. I will give helpful tips to make the experience some what painless. I believe you should give it a try, you never know if that will be something you might really enjoy. I went out of my comfort zone and tried it with my husband and have really enjoyed the pleasures of anal sex, I have had very intense and amazing orgasms from anal sex but ofcourse I go by my own tips to make it less painful so keep reading.

Tips to keep in mind when having anal sex:

1. You more than anybody knows your man's dick size, the question you must ask yourself is are you ready to feel all of it up your...ummmm butt!

2. Be prepared!! Men don't feel the pain of anal sex just the pleasure part of it so it's up to you to make this experience a good one. Make sure to have lots of lube available, a numbing anal cream believe me this will be your saving grace, anal beads and/or butt plugs this will be used on your own to start preparing your ass for penis. I buy all of our bedroom needs at Adam and eve it's a online sex shop, so check it out.

3. Please ladies do yourself and your partner a favor and take a shit before having anal sex, you do not want to have shit coming out while having sex that's just disgusting.

4. When your partner is finally inside of your ass it will feel uncomfortable but roll with the punches, start rubbing your clit and the sensation will change from uncomfortable to amazing.

5. The more often you have anal sex the less pain you will feel, so try having anal sex about 3 times a week. You don't need your partner for this all the time, use your anal beads and butt plugs til you can handle a dildo.

These are my 5 most helpful tips I can give you for having anal sex, it works for me and I'm pretty sure it will work for you. Go into this experience with a open mind and just let go and have fun. Lastly I want to tell you ladies & gentleman's is to use a condom always when doing anal sex even if you guys are a couple that don't use condoms. Why I say this well, you don't want your man's dick in a shit hole then have him place it in your pussy...that's 1. Nasty and 2. Bound to catch a infection 3. Messy. Or if you don't want to use condoms for anal just make sure to leave anal sex towards the ending of sex and just stick to that only. All in all just have fun, I recommend trying it out and see if it's something you like and if so continue doing so, remember you can do every position with anal just like regular sex, so get creative and live a little! Love you all X0x0Xox0X.

Cozy VoxBox Review

Today's blog post is going to be a little different, but please note i will be doing product reviews on upcoming blogs. Today's blog is about my Influenster cozy voxbox, so for those that don't know about Influenster, its a website that anyone can sign up too and make a profile, you can give your reviews on everyday products that you use or have used for others to see, you get graded on your influence meaning all your social media outlets and how active you are on your social media as well on writing reviews and getting badges. I definitely recommend this site so please go check it out, its super easy to use and you never know if you will receive a voxbox. The Cozy voxbox i received was sent to me totally free for me to review the items.

So first off i want to start out on how excited i am to have received my first voxbox from Influenster. I received a email stating i got picked and less than a week later i received my box. when i first opened my box i was siked. I will list down the products i received and my review on each item:

1. Simple Cleansing Facial Wipes-
The pack brings 7 wipes, seems more like a sample pack but that's fine. I am one who loves make-up so I knew that this would be one of the first items that I would use. I just used the wipes two days ago and let me tell you it worked great! All I needed to use was one wipe and it took all my makeup off. I did have to go and use my eye makeup remover liquid just because I was using long wear mascara and really needed a bit more help removing it off. But that didn't bother me as I do that anyways with my current facial wipes. I will definitely repurchase. The cost of this item is $5.99 for the 25 ct pack, not badly priced but works well and is especially made for sensitive skin so that's a plus in my book.

2. Maybelline Super Stay 24 Color-
I received the super stay 24 color in the shade 025 Keep Up The Flame. To receive this product it was freaking awesome since many of you know I am a make-up addict lol. I just used this product today since 11 AM this morning and its now 6 PM and its still there even after I ate, it did get a slight bit lighter but no big difference. This product sells for $9.49, I think I would repurchase in the near future.

3. Pilot FriXion Clicker Pen-
I was sent 2 FriXion clicker pens. One in red and the other in blue, I am just going to jump right into it and say I love these pens! Yeah I know many of you are going to say "It's just a pen" but it is not just a pen. Th is pen is awesome it is erasable and u would not even know. I am one that makes many mistakes when I write anything so these came in handy. I will definitely repurchase these pens for sure. The price on these babies are $6.99 for a pack of 3 at office depot, this price is perfect for the quality of these pens so make sure to grab yourself a pack or two.

4. Daisy Squeeze Sour Cream-
I was not sent an actual sour cream squeeze bottle but they gave me a coupon for one free full size sour cream. And girl you already know I went to my supermarket and grabbed me one for Friday's Taco Night. I usually purchase the one that comes in the plastic container and it's a mess after you're done. With this product it was easy and non messy just the way I like things to be and of course it was delicious. I will go on and buy this form of the Daisy sour cream from now on. The price for this item is $3.49 and it's a decent size for the price.

5. Country Crock Spread- 
Once again they did not send a container of butter in my box lol, they did put in a coupon for a free container of butter. This is the usual brand I buy for my butter, I love this product its smooth and taste great. The price for this item is $3.12.
 
 

Chapter 11: My Mr.Right ( Part 1 )

Hey my loves!!!
I know I have been away for a couple of days and I do have a explanation for that. As many of you guys know my daughter has been sick and still is but is doing a bit better. Also you guys are aware that election day was a few days ago and I been a bit in a rage about our new president, but I will not go into politics on my blog as this is just a special space for all of my family and friends near and far to get a glimpse of my life. I also want to give you guys a brief update on my newest plans so far, you all know I was giving you a new chapter every day but we are nearing the end of my life chapters and soon I will just have life blogs on my current lifestyle and instead of doing daily updates I will bring you guys 2 life blogs and I will continue with Sex talk Sunday's and maybe a bonus random vlog here and there. Okay so that's what's going on so far so please stay and enjoy reading Chapter 11....

On June 17, 2012 my cousin Jean had reached out to me and was comforting me on my rant on the bad luck I was having with men in my life and j had told him I don't think I would be dating men anymore and would go with girls. As I have mentioned in one of my previous chapters I am bisexual. Jean told me that he had a good guy for me that had a little girl and like you guys know I was hesitant, and too sweeten the deal my cousin told me he had heard that he had a big dick lol so FYI I think that's why I decided hey why not!! On June 17, 2012 it was Father's day so I decided to reach out to Fernando and write him a message wishing him a Happy Father's day and who was I and that my cousin had told me to talk to him, I sent a friend request and decided to wait for a response. A couple hours later I had a message from him and a accepted friend request. In his message he was sweet and respectful, he told me he was 29 and was Dominican etc., so I decided to send him my number to get to know eachother better on the phone, I went into his Facebook profile to be greeted by a gorilla profile picture. I was horrified I kept saying omg I hope he isn't ugly lol, I went into his pictures and to my surprise he was very handsome and his daughter was precious! Later that night he called me and we spoke for a couple hours and we immediately hit it off and became boyfriend and girlfriend through long distance. I told him alot about my life story and my children and he told me about his and we had alot in common there. Ofcourse since I pretty much have zero filter I asked him about his dick size lol which girls this is a very important question to ask, you do not want to be surprised by a micro penis lol okay okay let me stop. He busted into a hefty laugh and said that's what he has been told so I went big and bold and asked for a picture and can you believe he did not shy away and sent it to me lol...Let's just say my eyes was very satisfied with the view. I thought it would be only fair and send him a nice picture in lingerie so he can feast his eyes, oh and yes he did!! Things were great in the beginning, we spoke hours on the phone everyday and I discovered he had a beautiful voice and he would sing to me on the phone every night. We were very active with eachother through Facebook and would be lovey dovey all th time on our posts or comments. One day on one of his pictures I came across a comment from a female named Reina and it was a flirtatious one and I immediately called my cousin and asked who the fuck was she, I was upset because they both told me he was single but the way she was responding it sounded a bit more like a courtship.y cousin went on to tell me that was a ex of his and that they were done and over and he was pretty sure she was saying those things since she knew that there was a new woman in the picture. After hanging up with Jean I called Fernando and asked him about the girl and he told me the same thing my cousin said so I just shook off the feeling and let it go. The following day I see a fucking picture that he was tagged on with this bitch both hugging and when I tell you my blood was boiling it was. Now the reason I was upset was because I didn't want to be used or played with I wanted something sincere. I immediately called my cousin since his trifling ass was tagged in the picture too. When he answered all he said was he don't know what's going on but he knows Fernando is single and to talk to him about it, and shit you know I was. Immediately after hanging up I called Fernando and my tone of voice was not a pleasant one and he told me that Jean and him went fishing and she went along and they just took a picture which in all honesty I was not buying it at all. He told me she was a ex of his from about 10 years ago when they dated in high school and she had cheated on him or something like that and he was getting his revenge on her by using her. That did not sit well with me. He told me to give him a few days and he will get rid of her and when it was done he would call me, you know my blood was beyond boiling I told him off and told him to forget my number and I'll do the same. It didn't matter to me because we was just dating online and we haven't even met and besides he was 3,000 miles away, but to be honest my heart ached because I really liked him and I thought we was hitting it off and was thinking maybe he would be my Mr.Right. A couple days went by and I didn't delete his number like I said, I was mad not stupid. So I decided to be slick and send him a text acting like I didn't know whose number was it. He texted back and said it was him and I was like oh ok hi and how was everything going? He told me the girl was a done deal and I was all his. If he only knew how I jumped all over my room with excitement because that means my chance wasn't over. Needless to say the drama continued for like another week but this time I was not giving up on my man no matter what this girl was saying because Fernando would call me multiple times a day for hours. A month of dating online passed and I was very happy, but sad because I wanted to see him in person, so one day I casually asked him if I would go to New York would he be happy and he said yeah and that I could stay with him. So I was a girl on a mission, I called my ex husband and told him that I needed him to purchase me round trip tickets to New York because I wanted to see my dad, yeah I lied so what! And within 10 minutes I had my round trip ticket dated for August 11, 2012 for 2 weeks. When I called him with the news he was beyond excited and we were now counting down the days. I eventually spoke to my mom about him and that I would be going to visit him for 2 weeks and needed her to stay with the kids while I went to visit, and to my surprise she didn't disagree. She felt like I was grown enough now to make choices in my life and genuinely just wanted to see me happy. On August 1, 2012 my baby girl kylie turned 1 years old and I had a birthday party for her planned on the 10th the day before my trip. Her party was a success and I was exhausted and had to give my babies a kiss and head home to start packing, yeah I know I waited for the last minute. I packed up, did my hair and layed down til the next morning. That morning I was so freaking nervous, my stomach was turning, it was going to be the first time I would meet my boyfriend lol. My home girl Ivette drove me to the airport I touched up my makeup and made sure I was looking great. The flight was 3 hours too long and my stomach was in knots, I felt like I was going to hyperventilate. When the plane arrived, that's it my nerves had the best of me. My knees was weak, I was shaking, teeth was clicking, I was a mess. I remembered waiting behind the sliding doors trying to catch my breath. I was very happy but there was a problem. I couldn't see from far, I hadn't had glasses in forever and needed them badly, and at this time I needed it the most. I was as blind as a bat. I took a deep breath called him and confidently walked out and told him I was by the baggage claim and he told me to look to the left that he was seeing me, problem was I didn't see him. I tell you know that I didn't need blush, I naturally was red in the cheeks. All of a sudden I hear the only loud crowd, full of yelling Dominicans and I just knew that it was that direction that I needed to go. Sure enough there stood Fernando. When I first saw him I was stuck, he was not my type at all! He was about 5'9 and chunky, but he had a nice smile, and wasn't bad looking. I gave him a big hug and our first tap kiss lol. He had picked me up with his friends, so that explained the extreme loudness in the airport. On the ride to his place, I remembered sneaking a text to my mom that went something like this " Mommy please save me, change my ticket date sooner he is not my type at all and 2 weeks with him will be torture", her response was the best one yet " Well that's too bad for you deal with it, in life there is more to someone beyond there appearance so try looking at inner beauty and maybe then you will find happiness", this is the best thing my mom ever told me. We finally arrived at his house, he lived there with his mother and daughter and I was nervous as hell...luckily when we got upstairs no one was home or else I would've died from a panic attack. When we got in he dropped my luggage at the door and took my hand to the bedroom. All I could tell myself was look Jericka get it together and make the best of shit, you put yourself in this predicament. When we got to the bedroom he literally flung me on the bed, and at that moment all worries left out the window. I was sexually frustrated it had been like 4 months that I had sex and masturbating was not the same as penetration and my body needed to feel a man. He started kissing me and undressing me rather quickly, next thing I know I have become his meal, he was hungrily licking my...well you get the point!  Lol omg!! He started taking his clothes off and jesus christ when he pulled them boxers off, I nearly came just by his size. He was very ummmm thick and I was drooling lol. He made love to me so good and after that he became exactly my type!!! Later that day his mom gets home with his daughter and that lady nearly atr his head, Fernando lied to me and he did not ask his mother permission for me to stay there, i was in a panick i was like Omg what am i going to do if his mom kicks my ass out, i dont know what he told her but he managed to persuade her to let me stay. Days was passing by and I was falling deeply in love with him, he was so sweet and at times rough. He would sing to me and make me smile so big! For the first time in my life I felt like I could be myself, be goofy, and all and he wouldn't go anywhere. Two weeks went by way to fast, the night before my trip I remember that I cooked and after dinner we was listening to music and the song came up from Romeo Santos " Llevame contigo " and he started singing it to me, and at that moment I knew he was my happily ever after and god then confirmed it, he grabbed my hand and asked me to marry him, and I said yes and he slipped on my ring. We made sweet passionate love and a video too lol. Who knew when will I see him again but we both knew that we was eachother's happiness. The next day was very hard for me the whole ride to the airport I cried and he held me, I wanted to go home because I missed my babies but I also didn't want to leave my love behind. We said our goodbye and he left and I swear I felt my heart rip out and leave with him. But what would come next was amazing...

Thank you all for reading this chapter of my life as this is where my happiness and life started to have more meaning. Don't hesitate to leave a message and follow me at the bottom of my blog page. Love you all X0x0Xox0X and make sure to check-in tomorrow for Chapter 12: My Mr.Right  ( Part 2 ).

Chapter 10: From rags to riches...

Hey dolls!! I know, I know I didn't put up this chapter yesterday but my little is pretty sick and yesterday was not a good day to sit and peacefully vlog for you guys. I hope you guys understand but without further wait here is chapter 10 😘

The site I went to was Sugardaddyforme.com, and when I got in I just registered and ofcourse they ask if you want to upgrade but I didnt. I was browsing and came up with a few men I messaged but I was going for older men because idk I felt they might just want company or someone to talk to. The first day you have to wait to get approved, but the next day I had a message from a man named Ron, he was 52 and lived in Utah, he owned his own business and his financial status was in the millions. At first I was like yeah fucking right, probably some fake as person. I messaged him for about a week and he was nice. He asked for my number and he called. I was so freaking nervous I didn't know what to say but I wanted to play it off because I needed this to work for me. He asked if I lived alone I said yes and I had 2 kids and he said that was great, he only had a son and he was 32. He asked me if I have had luck on the site before and I was honest and said this was my first time, he giggled and said lucky him. We spoke a little of everything about my family etc. Kiara was such a sweet lil girl so when I put her on the phone one day to say hi he fell in love with her personality and always had a soft spot for her. He told me he was going to send me some money through western union and needed my address, I didn't care since all I had was a p.o box and within a hour he called with a confirmation number. So I called my mom and told her that he sent money and I needed a ride, she asked how much I said idk. My dumb ass didn't know that I needed to put the amount being received so I had to call him, so I did. He told me to go to western union then text him and he will tell me how much. In my head I was like this sounds like a scam but I'll roll with the punches. Once there I texted him and he gave 2 instructions as follows 1. Take $500 and buy kiara a laptop for school 2. Enjoy and have fun my love! And I had my jaw dropped when a second text comes in with the amount. Let's just say I nearly fainted. He said he sent $2,500 and had the nerve to say I hope that's enough if not text me back and I'll send u more. I jumped out the car so fast without telling mom anything went inside and filled my form out and sure enough I was handed $2,500 in sweet cash. They put the money in a manila envelope just so it won't be obvious and I practically ran to the car. When I get in my mom says well..how much was it? I just hand her the envelope and she looks at me with wide eyes before opening it. When my mother saw the amount sent she nearly died. But my mom said you through the line now reel in the bait, you must continue seeing where this leads hopefully marriage, and my answer was oh please mom this site is not for marriage. That afternoon I treated all of us to eat, then a shopping spree at the mall. You see I had just moved into my own apartment like 4 months before and was doing my best to make it feel like home but now I had the money to do so. I went shopping for clothes, shoes, bags clothes for the kids and shoes, gave like $50 each to my sister and brother to buy whatever they wanted, and kiara's money for her laptop I gave to mom along with $200 extra just for her. I was in heaven I bought so much crap from microwave, bed in a bag sets, crib bedding, etc. When I got home I called him and told him thank you and he answered back anytime. The next day I felt great I had money in my pocket, bills was paid, kids was good my life was feeling a bit better. That day I did some food shopping and was exhausted, my daughter kylie was a nightmare as a baby she was a very bad colic baby which meant sleepless nights for me. Kylie at the time was 1 month old. That night I treated my son and I too some Burger King and called it a night early. When I woke up I woke up to 2 messages from Ron and 2 from my mom, I proceeded to read Ron's message and nearly fell off the bed, it said "Good morning beautiful hope kylie let you get some rest, I need you to shower and head over to Western Union I sent you a nice gift". I was like are u freaking kidding me I still had like $800 left from the last "gift" he sent me but I was not going to sit here like a idiot and complain. I answered with "Thanks hunny I'll go as soon as I can, have a great day at work", I remembered mom had texted me and asked me if I wanted to go to Walmart because she wanted to see if she could find kiara a laptop there, so I told her yeah sure. When she arrived I came down with my babies, stroller and baby bag ready too go, mom looks at me and says "why the hell you look so happy after you told me you didn't sleep last night" I just showed her the confirmation number and she just looks at me and says "Again?". I didn't answer and we drove to the western union by my house. When I get inside it's the same young lady that attended me and she smiles and asks if I need a money order I tell no I'm there to pick up my money, she looks at me and says I'm a lucky girl, I just laugh and say yeah I guess. Same thing again he told me no amount so I text him and he says it's the same amount as last time that will be your every other day allowance. I kid you not I dropped to my knees and thanked god for this amazing blessing. I go back out to the car with another manila envelope and mom mouth just dropped and all I said was same amount. And we drove in silence. This happened for about 2 weeks, during this time we agreed to meet and he purchased my ticket to fly down to Utah to meet him, and ofcourse sent me cash to buy clothes and a new stroller for kylie etc. I was leaving jeremiah behind because I wanted time to spend with him, I brought kylie along because she was so tiny and needed me. My mom was a bit skeptical about him, she would say how about he kill you and I would just glare at her lol. About 2 weeks before my trip Ron and I was talking and I asked him if he ever got married and he said no but would like to someday and I agreed with him. Then he said "Jericka I know we haven't met but I'm getting older and I really like you, would you do me the honor and marry me?" Let's just say I think the whole Puerto Rico heard me scream, then I said "yes". Now before you guys start talking crap let's be real, I had 2 small kids, no job, and a shitty ass life so far and here is this man offering me the world, I thought about my kids and did what I thought was right. He told me to do all the preparations needed, book a venue, food, drinks, guests, dress etc. I finally told mom she was hesitant but encouraged me to go for it. We found my venue almost immediately because I loved the location it was in Hotel Cofresi in Rincon, Puerto Rico. The hotel offered me the venue, the decorations, food, drinks, etc so I was sold and the total was $6,000 for about 20 guests and I called Ron, handed the lady the phone and she charged him and it was onto the next. I had to find a dress and at first wanted a beautiful white  dress but as days passed I felt less excited and more like doomed. I wasn't happy, I didn't love this man so I settled for black, a nice black dress. I took care of the paperwork and in a few days left to Utah. Oh my god that trip was tiring...I had to do a layover in New York then straight to Utah. When I arrived I was scared, it was somewhere I've never been too. When I arrived he picked me up in his beautiful pick up truck, my first impression of Ron was, Oh fucking god he looks old but not ugly. We arrived at his house at jesus christ it was gorgeous, huge, lots of cars in front and was greeted by the maid. Yessssssss I was in heaven!! He showed me what would be "our" room and then jeremiah room and last kylie's room. The house had 3 floors. And I could totally get use to this lifestyle. That night he picked up take out food and it was good. He took off to watch TV and left me with Adrianna the maid. We got to know eachother, she was in her 50's and was from Transylvania. Yessssssss people that's a real place! It was good that we got along but he did tell me not to be to friendly with the help, but ofcourse I didn't listen. Ron came into the kitchen got a ice cream and left again, about 15 minutes passed he came out to throw the wrapper away and when he spoke I swear I died about 20 times and lived. He had NO TEETH!! My face must of looked mortified because after he left the maid was bursting in laughter, I was not at all amused but couldn't contain the laughter. She asked me if I had known and I said hell no, and she told me "well get use to it because your kids need it" then winked. My stay in Utah was great, we shopped and ate around, he showed me the mountains and I instantly fell in love with Utah. The night before our flight back to Puerto Rico he proposed and gave me a beautiful diamond ring and I saw our wedding band it was gorgeous. He paid a fortune that I know. We made it back to Puerto Rico and he stood at my house. I felt really poor compared to him but hey it was my home and not once did he complain. The day before the wedding he left back to my house with joshua and I stood with mom, I used the excuse that the groom isn't suppose to see the bride, but in reality I just wanted to spend time with my mom. I was nervous and afraid, I would no longer live in Puerto Rico but I was not giving in my apartment just yet. On the day of the wedding I got my hair and nails done, and did my own makeup and was ready. We was on a time schedule because we was getting married on the beach while the sun was setting. I didn't really care I almost did not make it, I had cold feet. My grandpa walked me down the aisle. And as the woman was marrying us I was hoping that someone would raise there hand and object but nobody did, and I knew I was fucked. We did not have a honeymoon, we went straight home and to sleep. Not once did we have sex during our marriage. We left to Utah like 2 days after being married with both kids, when we arrived he had bought kylie a beautiful canopy crib and jeremiah a full size car bed awesome! It was easy to get adjusted to living there, I bought over 20 books to read that way every night I would read on the couch til I fell asleep so I  wouldn't have sex with him. Thanksgiving came and I cooked but I was very lonely, I missed my family and it wasn't the same. Around Christmas we bought a huge tree and decorated it, the kids had massive amounts of toys but I wasn't happy. On Christmas he gave me a necklace with a key and covered in diamonds and he said I held the key to his heart, I nodded and gave him a hug. That night I was smoking in the garage because it was freezing out when he busted the door open and scaring me to death. He was arguing about how I wouldn't sleep with him or how I was always on my phone. He kept telling me without him I was trash and that pissed me off. I followed him back inside and in the kitchen I asked for a divorce, (we had a prenuptial so I didn't care for the money) he yelled in my face while spat at me NO! And that was it for me, I grabbed the butcher knife and chased him around til he agreed to follow so, and he did, he printed the divorce papers to take to court and the next day he paid and we was divorcing. He begged me to stay after New year's, I didn't want to but I felt I owed him that much, so I stayed. I packed all I could and he drive me to the airport. Now before I continue please note that he would give me his Black card to spend but never gave me cash. Anyways back to the airport. When he dropped me off, he took my bags out, gave me $100 a left me right there. It was freezing out and I had the kids and all the stuff, I broke down crying. A gentleman helped me with my things to check in. I had a layover again in New York but I stuck out the 8 hours with the kids and got on the flight back home. Oh I forgot to mention that while being in Utah I kept in contact with Orlando and he knew I was coming back, he said he wanted us to be together so I asked him to come live with us. So when I arrived mom picked me up and dropped me off, and about 3 hours later Orlando moved in, I'm going to spare the details on him but he only lived with me 2 months and I kicked him out because he wasn't doing shit to help me, so I didn't need him, and just like that he was gone again. Months passed and nights was getting lonely, I would have occasional booty calls with Edison, but I wanted more I wanted to love and feel loved but that wasn't happening, so I publicly stated on Facebook that I was over men and wanted a girlfriend. My cousin Jean immediately inboxes me asking if I'm nuts lol so I talk with him and he tells me that he has a friend that's a nice guy but he has a daughter. I cut him off and said nope because I dated a guy with a daughter (Orlando) and that didn't work out well. So he told me just give it a shot so I agreed...so I reached out to a guy named Fernando that lived in New York City on June 17, 2012. God had a nice surprise in store for me!!! So make sure to read Chapter 11 tomorrow...lol

My thoughts:
Very simple, best decision I made was to divorce Ron because he had showed me h I w aggressive he could become and also because I wasn't happy. I had gotten in that relationship in the hopes of giving my children a better future, but I realized that my happiness matters as well. I have no regrets on this at all because I was going to be very happy in the end.

* I know I promised you all 2 chapters tonight but I wrote a lot for this chapter so chapter 11 will be posted tomorrow, we will continue with one blog a day...I have a painful migraine and even writing this portion of the blog is killing me.*

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